Honest
What do you want to be? Truly? What do you want to be Billy b?
I want to be honest! In my life, my writing, my work, everything! I want to be honest!
Billy b’s theory on blogging if it happens in my life then it has the potential to be written on this blog. I have to be honest about that. I am upfront and telling you this now. This blog is my journal. It is where I put pen to paper every day and talk about what is going on in my life. I have good intentions here and I am trying to be one of sound and honorable principles. I like to claim I am a liar and a thief, I am really neither.
There are exceptions to every rule. My exceptions go like this:
1)
Ask me not to talk about it? I can’t in good faith
betray that trust.
2)
Family. Look we
all have the skeletons in our closets and the truth is everyone says my family is
fucked up, but I am here for me to fix me, that is all I can do, so that is
what I have to talk about.
3)
Politics. You
don’t want to hear about mine and frankly I don’t want to hear yours. I am not trying to save the world in this
blog, just my life.
This blog is my safe haven. A place where I can talk about the daily struggles I face trying to change my life. Trying to get better and trying to change. I might say things on here you find offensive. Or you might “oh god, he is pathetic.” Honestly, what you think of me, I don’t care. I played that game. For a long time I looked for approval in others. I tried to identify with their wants and needs. Where did that leave me? It left me alone, fat, and unhealthy.
If what I say here upsets you then don’t read it. I simply state where I am coming from in and of that moment when I turn to my true talent and start writing. I write in the moment for the moment and of the moment. My only goal is to be able to look back and say I gave it my all. I did what I could do. I changed my life.
Every day I change. Every day I get better. What else can we ask for?
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