My stomach feels like it is going to burst. I am not 100% sure why, maybe because I was
two hundred calories over yesterday.
Damn me and having that hot chocolate, at least it was bought for me by
a smoking young blonde with a great smile.
I am not sure if it is that or I just don’t feel normal. That few days I am have been off. It has been really hard to get out of bed and
my food seems to be sticking with me and not moving along. Hell it might be the rain and the gray. It could also be I have not walked since
Friday because of the rain. Then there
is the work and it is a grind right now, so much to do in between now and
12/31. There is no rest for the wicked
in sight either. Tonight I have a team outing
and tomorrow another at the warriors game.
It is really hard for me to go out and be social after working all
day. I get tired so easy. What makes it even worse although my
imagination is running wild, when I sit down to put pen to paper, I got
nothing. Nada! Zero!
Zilch! I stared at the computer
for hours Saturday and Sunday and trying write my first death scene, but couldn’t. I mean I know that Deputy Kyle Mayfield has
to die, and I know how he dies, and well, nothing. Even yesterday’s blog and today’s feel little
forced. Perhaps, some days you just don’t
have anything to say? Or maybe I am just
a whinny brat. Some say “Si” and some Say “No”.
What I do know is no matter what I am going to keep plodding
down the current path I am on. No matter
what distractions there are. No matter
how many questions and concerns I have. No
matter what, I am going to move forward.
I am going to keep logging, and tracking my calories. I am going to record my movement when I do
it. I am going to keep trying to be the
best me I can possibly be. Because I see
it now, I do, I see the person I am supposed to be. How I am supposed to look and the things I am
supposed to do. My mind’s eye goes
beyond the kid in the green shirt and sees the man who is inside me and under
the fat. So, 17 days I have logged and
tracked. Can you believe it? I barely
can. It isn’t a distraction or a burden. It is just what I do. 17 days, I am really proud of myself. Really, really I am very proud; I never
thought I would do that.
This is my 400 Blog... I am a little surprised by that. I also feel little of the excitement I felt at 100, 200, and 300. I am not sure why. 400 entries and 18,825 views that is something one could be proud of! Maybe it is the rain. Maybe is that you see some doors in your life closing and other opening and while you are excited, you are also a little scared. Perhaps, it is I am in a 17 day groove and if these 400 blogs have shown anything is that I have the ability to muck things up early, often, and fast. Especially after a bit of a winning streak. However, you know what... FUCK that... I am pretty proud of achieving another milestone :0)Fun facts about 400:
- The Atari 400 home computer
- 400 a Lebanese Card Game
- going 2 - 5 yields a batting average of .400
- hitting 400 was last accomplished by Ted Williams in 1941
- The Sun is approximately 400 times the size of the Moon but also is approximately 400 times further away, creating the temporary illusion in which the Sun and Moon in Earth's sky appear as if of similar size
I love the World Wide Web!!!!
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