I gained this week. I was pretty disappointed. I tried really hard not to be down about it, but I couldn't help it. If worked so hard and I wanted to be Ian the twenties so bad. I was sure the last 8 lbs to get to my smoker where right just a few weighs away. 5 days left on the cleanse and I got the biggest curve ball of it today. I just never thought I'd gain. My eyes filled with tears, I wanted to scream. I was scared. I was scared because I know myself and I know this is how it can begin. It's a slippery slope with the food and me. And I'm scared of what a set back will do to me.
So, I came home and I went for an hour walk. I made a food plan for the week. I went shopping and now I'm working on executing my plan.
I can't give up now. I can't turn back.
I have to much going may way. There's no reason to fear. I can do this. Even being up 1.8 I still feel better l, move better, and fit into my clothes better. Today was a blip on the radar. I'm not the same person I was before.
Can't worry about it, just have to keep pushing on.
I'll rebound from this and get better!
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