Sometimes all that matters is...

 

Sometimes the only thing that really matters is that you wake up each day with hope!  Every day when I wake up its a new start and the world is mine!  If you don't wake up with hope then what is the point.

I'm not saying everyday I wake up and I'm all shits and giggles.  I'm not waking up and bouncing off walls.  I'm not.  I'm a grizzly bear when I wake up.  I'm borderline hateful till I have my coffee.  However, at the same time I feel a sense of rejuvenation and purpose.  A sense that until two weeks ago was crush soon as I plugged snow flake my electric car into the outlet in Pleasanton.  I felt stuck and trapped in a situation I wasn't in charge of, or felt I wasn't.

However every day but one over the last two weeks I've been up before my alarm.  Everyday I have a sense of purpose and that what I'm doing is taken for granite and I'm making a difference.   Not just at work, no, mostly in my own life.

Yes I get down.  Last nights blog is a testament to just how close the black and darkness always is to me. This is a hard week for me.  It's easy to get down.  However each morning I get up and I feel alive!  I feel like the sky is the limit for me.  I dream big and want to live bigger.

So each day is a new day!  Each time we get up and face what's out there we get a little bit better than before.

My road is a hard one.  200 plus pounds have to be shed.  Food addiction to over come.  However most importantly I have to use the key I have to unlock the prison of my mind.  So much mind fucking I've done to myself over that last twenty years.  I have to unravel that mystery of my mind.  It's gonna be hard, it's full of plot twists and loop holes.  It's a living beast that doesn't want to be riddled.

However, I will.  I will because I have hope that I will.  I will because each day I accept that challenge that i have to get better.  I will because each day I wake up with hope!  Sometimes that hope is all that matters!